The Reason(s) Why
It’s been almost a year since I took a “holiday break” from the blog and Instagram. Said break was supposed to last two weeks and ultimately turned into about 10 months. There was a very obvious surface level reason I took a break but as the months passed, I realized there were other underlying reasons I so desperately wanted to walk away. Whether you’re a loyal follower and reader or the occasional browser I think it’s important for me to shed some light on my recent hibernation. So many of you messaged and continue to message me to see when/if I’m coming back. I so greatly appreciate that I am missed and feel grateful to have such loyal followers.
The very obvious surface level reason I took a break from blogging is that I was pregnant. My third pregnancy combined with parenting two toddlers and running a household was sucking the life out of me. My spare minutes (who am I kidding…seconds) were not well spent writing blog posts or searching the internet for clothes I wouldn’t be able to wear for more than a couple months. I felt completely uninspired by style due to the fact that my jeans were no longer fitting and my boobs practically tripled in cup size overnight. Although I’m certain I could have inspired other pregnant women who were struggling to style their bodies, I couldn’t seem to find the time or inspiration.
There are a couple of underlying reasons I started to feel crappy about blogging that started to emerge as the months passed. I think the biggest reason eating away at me was comparison. My feed was filled with Gucci bags and perfect family photos and I felt like I couldn’t keep up. My baseboards haven’t been cleaned in months, my kids pants have holes in them and you know what, I can’t afford a Gucci bag. My Mom once told me that she felt like people liked following me because I showed up on Instagram Stories with my hair and teeth unbrushed. As gross (and untrue…the teeth part) as that may be, I think that’s what kept me relatable. I live on a budget, recycle my kids clothing and shop the sales when I can. I vowed to stop comparing my life, family, instagram feed to others.
I also found myself so concerned with follower count and engagement and was uninspired by what was showing up in my feed because I was simply giving a follow for a follow. Over the last year, I started unfollowing people that didn’t make me feel inspired, were negative or just weren’t what I wanted to spend my viewing time on and to be honest it felt great - almost like decluttering! I’m happy to say that I could care less about the number of followers that I have. I believe in quality over quantity and even if I only have a handful of engaged followers, that’s better than 10,000 robots.
This last reason might drop me right back into high school but I was feeling like an outcast among other local content creaters. My life, my three children, and my responsibilities don’t allow me the freedom to meet up for coffee and co-work or grab lunch or do group photo shoots and the more I saw it happening without me, the more I resented it. It felt like high school and I hated it. It took a slap in the face for me to realize how lucky I am that my life doesn’t afford me the opportunity to just pick up and go. I have been so blessed with three sweet babies and although some days are so hard, this is a season of life. I’ve realized that the ones I’m watching are in different seasons of their lives. Some with no kids and some with kids beyond the toddler stage, some with enough money to have a nanny. Either way, by no fault of their own, I let them steal the joy from this season of my life.
Let’s talk about how I plan to move forward. How I hope to inspire you though my content in the future. The focus of AnnieRoseClothes will be to inspire you to get creative with what you already have or help you create outfits that can be worn time and time again with a few updates over the years. We all like to add to our wardrobe each season but I hope to help you see how you can wear things multiple ways to get the most out of your money or where a splurge might be worth it. I also want to incorporate more recipes and lifestyle posts. If you know me personally, you know I love to cook and bake. I love making people happy through food and entertaining. Maybe you'll see some cooking videos in the future as well! Either way, thanks for sticking with me the past couple years. Thanks for supporting this space and thanks for allowing me to take up a little of your time. I promise I will use it wisely.
Without further ado, here are a few pictures of what I’ve been working on so hard for the last year. What is taking up my days and nights. What is making me so completely exhausted and filling my cup at the same time. Sweet Banks Junior Weller.